telling myself ( a rewrite)

I keep telling myself,
2 keep telling myself,
That leaving is the best thing 2 do,
So I keep telling myself,
2 keep telling myself,
That I'll be able 2 make it thru,

i keep telling myself,
2 keep telling myself,
that i'm stronger than i thought i could be,
i keep telling myself,
2 keep telling myself,
that things will all work out, just u wait and see,

but i don't know if i believe,
that man in the mirror who looks just like me,

i keep telling myself,
2 keep telling myself,
that tomorrow will be easier than 2day,
but in telling myself,
2 keep telling myself,
doesn't get me any closer 2 believin' that i'm gonna be okay,

why does it have 2 be so damn hard,
2 make things work,
when u've been on ur knees,
prayin' 2 god,
beggin' 4 a hand and a little bit of mercy,
and sayin' pretty pretty please,

so for now i keep tellin' myself,
2 keep tellin' myself,
u'll look back at this one day and u will smile,
i keep tellin' myself,
2 keep tellin' myself,
no matter the ending, the ride was all worth while,

she's gonna make it, and so will i,
happiness will not be as hard as we think 2 come by,
but i don't know if i can believe,
that man in the mirror who looks just like me,

cuz he hurts just like me,
and he cries just like me,
and he can't breathe,
he can't see,
there's a river of tears blocking his view,
so why the hell should i trust,
in the strength he's sayin' i've got,
when he doesn't look 2 be very strong at all?

i keep tellin' myself
2 keep tellin' myself,
that everything will work out in the end,
i just keep tellin' myself,
2 keep tellin' myself,
2 keep convincin' everybody else in the world,
cuz i'm not 2 sure that i'll be convinced,
even if i keep tellin' myself,
2 keep tellin' myself....