How Much is 2 Much

How much is 2 much 2 take,
They told me that a man should never break,
How long is 2 long 2 grieve,
The death of the 10 year old me,

Try 2 keep it outta my mind,
Try 2 dream about something else at night,
Trouble is, it puts up just as strong a fight,
As I do...

How do u just "move on",
How do u "let it go",
Things that I've been thru,
U wouldn't last a day in my shoes,

I didn't ask 4 this cross 2 bear,
I didn't wanna be "that guy"
Came in2 this world so unprepared,
2 live this kinda life,

And that's why I ask,

How much is 2 much 2 take,
Cuz they told me a man is not supposed 2 break,
And how long is 2 long to grieve,
The death if the 10 year old me?

I've refused this river of tears that beg 2 fall,
I've tried 2 convince myself that it really didn't happen at all,
I've tried 2 be strong, but it's defeating me,
The memories and nightmares, will not let me be,

How much is 2 much 2 take..
They told me a man is not supposed 2 break..
How long is 2 long 2 grieve...
The death of the 10 year old me....

Why can't u understand,
I'm doing the best that I can,
But it just won't go away,
It won't let me go,
Why do u find it in ur heart 2 judge me?

Is it really that hard 2 love the ugly 1.....

How much is 2 much?