Crazy

Do u scream at the t.v.,
do u like ur lovin slow and easy,
Or do u like it rough,
And only men who think they're tough,

Do u cry at the movies,
Movin urself closer 2 me,
Do u like kissin & huggin,
Or do u like 2 get straight 2 the all nite somethin somethin,

Girl do u love like crazy,
Cuddle up & call me baby,
Or do u like 2 fight,
Just 2 get 2 makin up,
Do u like the drama,
Callin names & runnin home 2 momma,
Not sayin it's gonna phase me,
Just wanna know what's ur kind of crazy,

I'm not tryin 2 judge,
I'm just tryin 2 see,
What a pretty girl like u,
Has in store 4 a guy like me,

Are u the kind that likes;
cards,flowers and forget-me-nots,
From What I've seen so far,
I gotta admit,
Your kinda crazy gets me hot,

Girl do u love like crazy,
Cuddle up & call me baby,
Or do u like 2 fight,
Just 2 get 2 makin up,
Do u like the drama,
Callin names & runnin home 2 momma,
Not sayin it's gonna phase me,
Just wanna know what's ur kind of crazy,

We're all a little messed up it's true,
I just wanna know,

What kinda crazy are u...

BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE

Beautiful Mistake

2Night I'm gonna give it,
Until my heart breaks,
Gonna make love 2 u,
Tho I know,
It's beautiful but it's a mistake,

It never works out,
It always ends then,
Both of us get lonely,
We end up back here again,

Ure longing 4 the touch of a man,
U know I know just What 2 do & where I stand,

And then we fall,

Back in2 this lovesick tragedy, I give all 2 u,
U give ur all 2 me,
But be4 the morning sun awakes,
Something beautiful,
Was just a mistake,

I wanna love u,
U wanna love me,
But it never works out,
Then one of us just has 2 leave,
But 2night,
I'm gonna give u all I got,
I'm gonna hit that spot,
And make this,
Beautiful mistake,

Beautiful mistake,

2Night I'm gonna give it all,
Until ur levee breaks,
I'm not gonna stop,
A downhill roller coaster with no brakes,
I'm gonna help create,
This beautiful mistake...

Beautiful mistake..

Beauty/Mistake

Beauty/Mistake

Wanna believe in every word u say,
Wanna believe I am not just a game u play,
Wanna believe this is a thing of beauty not a mistake,

Wanna feel it's real when ure holding me,
Wanna feel ur need and longing 4 me,
And know 4 sure it's not 4,
somebody else,

Wanna know that every time u say my name,
U know everything there is 2 lose and gain,
From my love..if I let u in.

So make me believe in every word u say,
Show me that ure here 2 stay,
I'm not just another game u play,
Show me this is a thing of beauty,
Not just another mistake,

I'm looking for that bliss inside a kiss,
The wish I've always wished,
For true love 2 come true,
The hands 4 holding,
The soul 4 molding,
In2 1 from 2...

could that be u,
Are u 2 good 2 b true....

If I believe in every word u say,
If I'm not just another game 2 play,
Can we share this thing of beauty,
And believe it's not another..

Mistake

The Rose

2 half souls unite and become 1,
no more walking alone,
a stem is just a stem by itself,
u need the petals to become.. the rose..
*********************************
will u be the petals,
will u complete me,
will u bring the color,
will u truly see me..for what i could be..

not just a stem.. not just a lone,
but part of something when joined,
2gether with u,

i'll hold u near me,
never let u go,
i'll be the strength and the lover u chose,
i'll spare u the thorns,
but i'll keep love growing,
keep your smile glowing,
if u'll be the petals,
2 my rose..

no need 4 a dozen,
i need only 1,
the day i meet u,
my life's just begun,

we'll be not just what we are,
when we are alone,
but part of something when joined 2gether.....

i'll hold u near me,
never let u go,
i'll be the strength and the lover u chose,
i'll spare u the thorns,
but i'll keep love growning,
keep your smile glowing,
if u'll be the petals,
2 my rose,

will u be the petals.. 2 my rose,

will u be the petals,
will u complete me,
will u bring the color,
will u truly see me..for what i could be..

not just a stem.. not just a lone,
but part of something when joined,
2gether with u,

i'll keep love growing,
keep your smile glowing,
if u'll be the petals,
2 my rose..

will u be the other half,
that completes my soul..

the petals..2
my rose...

STEAM

Scorching hot summer day,
melting underneath the Georgia sun, grabbed an ice cube,
see if I can make u come undone,while ure laying there on a picnic blanket,
I trace ur frame
and I smile as I see ure getting hotter the cold of the dripping water
hits ur body and quickly turns 2 steam..

Touching in the places
that make ur goosebumps start 2 rise,
that movement in ur body is matching that "come get me" look in ur eyes,
so as I begin 2 kiss where every drop of water lands on u,
uncontrollably I begin laying my hands upon u,
u pull our bodies 2gether,
till the only thing between us is... Steam..

Sweat on sweat,
Lips on lips,
Fingertips on exposed skin,
All of me inside all of u,
Kisses on places seldom seen,
Fulfilling every naughty dream,
2 souls coming together as 1,
creating...

Steam..

HOME

Nobody showed me,
Nobody told me,
I was afraid I'd never know what love is,
Kept me at arm's length,
Just out of reach,
My name never echoed from their lips,

I don't know if I found u,
Or if u found me,
All I know is that when ur arms are around me I feel...like I'm home,
I feel...like I'm home...

I never knew special,
Never knew wanted,
Never knew what being needed felt like,
Never felt desired,
Always in the way,
Never ever been held at night,

And when I made my way alone,
I thought I would be all alone,
Now u've come 2 me and..

I don't know if I found u,
Or if u found me,
But I do know when ur arms are around me I feel like I'm home,
feels like I'm home,

Where u chose me,
Where I'm supposed 2 be,
u wanna be close 2 me,
U tell me u want me,
I feel like u need me,
And I feel like I'm home,

I don't know if I found u,
Or if u found me,
But when u put ur arms around me,
I feel like I'm home,
I feel like I'm..safe and sound,
Happiness is all around, 
And I feel.......like I'm.....

Home

Insignificant

Always on my mind
like the Willie Nelson song,
Every second that passes,
What did I do wrong,
What if I was handsome,
What if I was strong,
What if I really am,
What if she was wrong,
What if deep inside of me,
Is a peace I've never known,
That keeps me from wallowing,
From picking up the phone,
From all my pride swallowing,
That's making me believe I'm no longer hollowing,
From the inside out,
What if my weakness all along,
Was something she lied about,
What if there really is a good man,
She wouldn't let out,
What if What if What if
Things had been different?
if I had really mattered,
Instead of being
insignificant.....

postcards from Colorado

On a postcard that she sent, from Colorado,
She said I don't wanna do this anymore,
She went on to say she's staying somewhere in the mountains,
And that this isn't like the other times before,
She's really gone..
She's gone for good..

She said the time we spent together isn't working,
I wanted So much more out of my life,
My dreams were larger than Just being a mother,
So much more than Just being ur wife,
So she's gone,
And she's gone for good,

when I think about the 10 years since she's left me,
And the beauty of that Colorado sky,
I can't help but wonder if she misses me,
Can't help all these tear drops in my eyes,
She's gone..she's really gone for good.
On a postcard that she sent from Colorado...
She said I don't love u anymore...

sittin' in the rain

sittin in the rain,
countin' raindrops,
wishin' that the pain would stop,
and i could breathe again,

wond'rin why it's so hard 2 be worth it,
Lord knows i'm not perfect,
but i just wanna be loved,
i just wanna be loved,

is it too much 2 ask,
perhaps it's 2 much a task,
4 someone 2 look at me twice,
2 make me the love of their life,

seems like the hurt comes easier,
it's like it won't cease,
so 2night i'm sittin' in the pourin' rain,
beggin' for some peace,

sittin' in the rain,
countin' randrops,
wishin' that the pain would stop,
and i could breathe again,

wishin' i could breathe again

can't make a move,
can't trust a soul,
don't nobody know the truth no more,
it's like it's more comfortable 2 lie,

so why do i put myself out there,
am i destined 2 be alone all my life,

sittin in the rain,
countin' raindrops,
wishin' that the pain would stop,
and i could breathe again,

wond'rin why it's so hard 2 be worth it,
Lord knows i'm not perfect,
but i just wanna be loved,
i just wanna be loved,

i just wanna be somebody's baby,
somebody's "hey, that's my man!"

sittin in the rain,
countin' raindrops,
wishin' that the pain would stop,
and i could breathe again,

wond'rin why it's so hard 2 be worth it,
Lord knows i'm not perfect,
but i just wanna be loved,
i just wanna be loved,

why is it so hard 2 be loved,

so ur last man made mistakes,
but 4 them why do i have 2 pay,
u can't give chances if u're afraid 2 let go..

can't make u love me

i've been searchin since birth,
2 find a bit of self worth,
4 someone 2 love me enough,
2 put me first,
so i thirst for a love but always come up with the worse,
end of the stick,
cuz i'm last on everybody's list,
someone who if gone,
ain't nobody would miss,
"oh chris," they would say, "he finally went away",
everybody would smile crack a brew and have good day,
but who'd say, damn, he is someone that i cared 4,
somebody i could have loved,
should have loved,
but wasn't there 4,
eh, i betcha not a tear would shed,
if they read it in the paper that christopher was found...
off the cost of somewhere beautiful,
not a soul would be sad,
when u think of me,
most of the times were bad,
some my fault but others were the cause of others,
mostly fake women,
and a lot of lying motherfuckers,
i'm a sucker for pretty smile,
but behind the pretty smiles are fakes,
never someone that gives,
they always seem 2 take,
goddman it,
i must have stupid written all over my face,
cuz the next time around,
the same thing takes place,
when will it ever end,
when will it ever cease,
when will somebody finally see love when they look at me,
when will somebody finally turn towards than away,
i'm sick of all this shit... guess that's why i gotta say...

i can't make u love me, if u don't...
u can't make ur heart feel something it won't,
here in the dark, in these final hours,
i will lay down my heart, and i'll feel the power,
but u won't.. tell me why.. u don't....

pills & whiskey

****disclaimer... this is art..(depending on who u ask) it doesn't depict real life in anyway, so don't think u need 2 save someone******

PILLS & WHISKEY

sittin' in my room,
man all this shit is hittin' me,
at one time man, i'm about to live on in infamy,
bout 2 go out exit stage left an then,
have these mufukkaz wonderin' why the hell they ever eff with him,
hit the store got a 5th of jack muhfukka,
hit the corner that's where them pills are at muhfukka,
bout 2 take this pain away,
bout 2 leave this place,
bout 2 do a couple lines then my existance erase,
cuz ain't nobody give a fuck,
wish somebody gave a fuck,
but i'm all alone in this muhfukka and it's tough,
people keep on fuckin' me,
ain't nobody lovin' me,
ain't nobody kissin' me,
bet nobody's missin' me,

pills & whiskey,
whiskey & pills,
bout ta leave this mufuka fa real,

i'm tired of feelin,
i'm tired of dealin,
tired of these fake mufukkaz keep me reelin',
ain't nobody want me,
loneliness haunts me,
voices in my head sayin' "go on and get gone C"
what did i do wrong man,
i'm just tryin' ta live right,
ain't nobody tryin' 2 be by my side,
it's all right,
don't come 2 the funeral,
don't even have a funeral,
put me in the muhfukkin' ground,
no festivities,
don't celebrate me,
everybody hates me,
nobody cares for me,
bout to get the fuck outta here voluntarily,

pills n whiskey,
whiskey and pills,
bout ta leave this muhfuka fa real,

triple bar Zanies,
couple lines of that uncut,
oxycodin, vicodin,
depacotes, i'm gettin' fucked up,
bout 2 go out without a bang or a rope,
just bottoms up on the bottles,
jack daniels and pills to the throat..

pills and whiskey,
whiskey and pills,
bout 2 leave this muhfukka for real


****disclaimer... this is art..(depending on who u ask) it doesn't depict real life in anyway, so don't think u need 2 save someone******

sleepin' with the radio on.. (u ain't called)

another hot night,
layin' in this bed alone,
wakin up every hour,
lookin' at the phone,
but u ain't called..

no texts, no thoughts about me at all,
and i've quit trying 2 count,
all the tears that just happened 2 fall,
if i ain't worth ur time,
why the hell do i think u are worth mine,

guess i'm,
sleepin' with the radio on,
something 2 occupy my mind,
since u've been gone,
u ain't comin' back home,
and since u left me all alone,
been sleepin' with the radio on...

playlist playin'
all ur favorite songs while i'm here layin,
tryin' 2 decide, why i'm comitting this emotional suicide,

u didn't think bout me enough,
2 scared 2 let urself fall in love,
u let others steer ur direction,
up next on the ipod.. ur favorite selection,

guess i'm..
sleepin' with the radio on,
something 2 occupy my mind,
since u've been gone,
u ain't comin' back home,
u fucking left me here alone,
and i can't get no sleep,
less i sleep with the radio on..
playlist playin' all ur favorite songs,
while i'm here layin' tryin' 2 wonder why i'm comittin',
emotional suicide...

u turned the truth in2 a lie..
u let others make u say goodbye,
u didn't feel enough,
i wasn't sweet enough,
amazing enough,
u didn't want me enough,....

another hot night,
layin' in this bed alone,
wakin up every hour,
lookin' at the phone,
but u ain't called..


u ain't called...