Always Yes

will i,..

open doors and pull out chairs for u,
write notes to tell how much i care 4 u,
sing ur favorite song, while we slow dance,
the answer's always yes,

will i,

call u up and thank u for lovin' me,
buy u flowers "just because" randomly,
pick up ur favorite food on my way home,
and then clean up the mess,
the answer's always yes,

i do the things i do,
because i want 2,
and because i,
really want u,
2 know everyday, in every way,
that i'm blessed 2 be in your glance,
u took a chance on me,
and held me in ur arms,
u promised the moon,
and u gave it and all of the stars,
so u should know how loved u are,
and never have 2 guess,
so no matter what u ask of me,,,,

the answer's always yes

will i,

show up at your job with a picnic made,
take u 2 the park & kiss in the shade,
carve in that big ol tree.. u plus chris..
the answer's always yes,

will i,

answer the phone every time that u call,
twenty four seven it don't matter at all,
there's nothing 2 hide, nothing 2 confess,
am i faithful and true,
the answer's always yes,

will i,

get down on one knee if the feeling is right,
and ask u 2 be my girl 4 the rest of my life,
and pray like hell that in ur next breath,
the answer will be yes....

i do the things that i do,
because i want 2,
and because i,
really want u,
2 know everyday, in every way,
that i'm blessed 2 be in your glance,
u took a chance on me,
and held me in ur arms,
u promised the moon,
and u gave it and all of the stars,
so u should know how loved u are,
and never have 2 guess,
so no matter what u ask of me,,,,

the answer's always yes

i'm more than a man,
because i'm YOUR MAN,
and i'm gonna give u everything that i can,
2 show u just how much of my life u've blessed,
all u have 2 do is ask,
the answer's always yes,

i do the things that i do,
because i want 2,
and because i,
really want u,
2 know everyday, in every way,
that i'm blessed 2 be in your glance,
u took a chance on me,
and held me in ur arms,
u promised the moon,
and u gave it and all of the stars,
so u should know how loved u are,
and never have 2 guess,
so no matter what u ask of me,,,,

the answer's always yes


whatever u need from me,
the answer's always yes....

weekends in November

who's bed did i wake up in,
what the hell's her name?
after the second round of shots last night,
i can't remember a thing,

i'm not sure what town i'm in,
where did i park my truck,
since the day that u left me,
i just don't care enough,

3rd day of November,
2 me is a mystery,
text messages on my phone,
say it will go down in history,
but i,
can't remember where i was,
or what it was i did,
i was tryin' to get over u,
but it just ain't happenin',
so the 4th day of November..
gonna start all over again,

once i get myself home,
i'm gonna freshen up,
make a pot of ur favoite coffee,
have myself a cup,

then it's off to the tavern,
where i'll meet "what's her name".
we'll have a few then have another,
and then we'll play the game,

and when i wake up tomorrow,
lookin' for my shirt,
my stomach will be tied in knots,
and my poor heart will hurt,

but these nights are cold and lonley,
and i can't face them alone,
so i'll go out and have a few,
and wake up in another strangers home,

4th day of November,
2 me is a mystery,
text messages on my phone,
say it will go down in history,
but i,
can't remember where i was,
or what it was i did,
i was tryin' to get over u,
but it just ain't happenin',
so the nextr weekend of November..
gonna start all over again,....

i don't know why u left,
when i needed u most,
but the only thing i see,
is myself in the bar room mirror,
wond'rin what the hell is wrong with me,

some honky tonk angel,
is gonna try & take the pain away,
and for a minute i'll forget about u,
but tomorrow i'll be back to not ok...

3rd day of November,
2 me is a mystery,
text messages on my phone,
say it will go down in history,
but i,
can't remember where i was,
or what it was i did,
i was tryin' to get over u,
but it just ain't happenin',
so the 4th day of November..
gonna start all over again,

4rd day of November,
2 me is a mystery,
text messages on my phone,
say it will go down in history,
but i,
can't remember where i was,
or what it was i did,
i was tryin' to get over u,
but it just ain't happenin',
so the next weekend in November..
gonna start all over again,

tales of a 4th grade nothing

woke up again around 4 in the mornin,
my whole face is swollen,
blood all in my mouth,
i think my jaw is broken,
how'm i gonna go to school,
what will my excuse be?
instead of getting breakfast,
i'm thrown in the hall closet,
no food no water nothing but my thoughts it's,
another 3 days in solitary confinement,
tryin' to force my face back into alignment,
...what happened last night,
i can't rewind it,
i think it's my thoughts protecting me,
don't wanna be reminded,
i'm blinded in 1 eye, it won't even open,
that i could get away from this place,
i'm always hopin',
the fuck i coulda done to get it this bad this time,
i just wanted to be left alone,
no "party" this night,
but hind sight's 20/20,
i shouldn't have fought back,
and my mouth wouldn't be jacked,
and my eye wouldn't be blue and black,
10 years old wond'rin' why this is happenin,
can't understand where my life went,
and why i can't get it back again,
why'd my momma leave me,
why'd the take my daddy,
whey they forcin' themselves on me,
and beatin' the shit outta me,
i just want somebody to come lookin' for me to escape me,
before the next time they wake me,
or i pray the lord will take me,
maybe he hates me,
why else would he ever foresake me,
they told me he loved me,
but nobody loves me,
nobody hugs me,
they just beat me and touch me,
hurt me,
i really wanna get out,
i can't even open my mouth to scream,
don't matter it won't let out,
nobody notices the absent kid from class,
nobody asks questions,
nobdy even fuckin' asks,
why there are bruises,
why there are scratches and bite marks,
and scabs over scabs on all of my scars,
why i never look anybody in the eye,
and why i always look like just about 2 cry,
when i get home about 3:30,
walk in the front door,
they'll resume the hurting...

Wanna b

I want to spend some time with u,
I want to share what's on my mind with u,
I wanna hear what interests u,
I wanna be the 1 that u turn 2,
I wanna make memories with u,

Talk 2 me, tell me bout ur day,
Tell me all ur favorite things,
Where u go, what u eat,
What's ur favorite color flower,

Tell me what brand of shoe u wear,
What kind of things u want in a man,
What's ur future plans?

maybe 2nite, we could get 2 know each other better,
Over drinks, over dinner,
We could just hang out together,

Talk about u about me and then maybe..about expectations and love.

I want to spend some time with u,
I want to share what's on my mind with u,
I wanna hear what interests u,
I wanna be the 1 that u turn 2,
I wanna make memories with u,

Tell me what ur looking for,
Tell me what the last one did,
2 become ur ex,
Tell me how u handle arguments
And the stress..

Tell me how I can become the next,
The best,

Tell me ur favorite song,
I'll sing it to u,
Do u like to dance,
Funny..I do too,

What u like to eat,
I'll cook it while u chill,
I'm the man u never thought existed,
Baby I'm for real...

I want to spend some time with u,
I want to share what's on my mind with u,
I wanna hear what interests u,
I wanna be the 1 that u turn 2,
I wanna make memories with u,

Don't miss this chance it could be so right,
This s the first day of the rest of our life,

I juat want to spend some time with u,
I want to share what's on my mind with u,
I wanna hear what interests u,
I wanna be the 1 that u turn 2,
I wanna make memories with u,

tired

tired of never beein good enough,
tired of dealing with the fight,
tired of the daily struggle to juggle all these thoughts in my head that ain't right,
tired of bein tired and feelin' sick,
tired of pretending to be happy when i'm feelin' like shit,
tired of puttin' on a smile with tear tracks on my face,
tired of lookin' at my life thinkin' damn what a waste,
tired of not bein' good enough,never looked at twice,
tired of bein' fucked over and told i'm too damn nice,
tired of not bein' an asshole,
tired of not bein' in control,
tired of layin' in this bed alone, on this blog, pourin' out my soul,
tired of the ones who say they love me who don't give a fuck,
tired of hearing my phone not ringin, this lonliness sux,
tired of people sayin' do for self,
tired of havin' to do for self cuz that's how i'm left,
tired of going to work, comin' home and sleepin' in a lonely bed,
tired of contemplatin' suicide cuz i'd be better off dead,
tired of wondering why nobody really cares at all,
tired of always feelin' like my back's against the wall,
tired of bein' tired and feelin' sick,
tired of pretnding to be happy, when i'm feelin' like shit,
tired of bein' the one who is always put together,
tired of bein' lied to by everybody and their fuckin' mother.. cuz they clever,
tired of bein' stood up, tired of prayin', tired of talkin,
tired of people sayin' they want me till they got me then they throw away,
tired of bein' made to feel like i should just go away,
tired of hearin' bout jesus and how he died for me,
tired of hearin bout how everybody would feel sad and cry for me,
tired of feelin' like i should pack the fuck up and move away,
tired of even writin' this fuckin' blog and sayin' what i need 2 say,
tired of bein' me, tired of the struggle,
tired of the bullshit.. i just want someone to come in to the huddle,
tired of tryin' to comfort myself when i just need a hug,
tired of hearin' that they do, but nobody really givin' a fuck,
tired of bein' maddladd, tired of bein' christopher,
tired of sayin' what i'm tired of so this fuckin' shit is GAME OVEr...

Then

If I wasn't me,
If I was like he,
Is that what it would take 4 u 2 c,
That I can love u,
Like No one else will love u,
Maybe If I was a perfect 10,

would u love me then?

If I had a little more money,
Would I be worth ur time,
2 share a little conversation,
2 get inside ur mind,
Would u take a second glance,
If my eyes were more blue,
If I was a perfect 10,

would u love me then?

Ain't nobody a perfect 10...
But If I were...

Would u love me then?