Listen 2 Beth Sing

Crying like a baby and I don't know why,

This river of tears is flowin out of my blue eyes,

When will these memories cease,

Will I ever get a moment of peace?

Can't sleep cuz the nightmares,

Are overtaking me,

I never wanted this 2 be my identity,

But it seems like it will be...

It's engrained in me....

Scared 2 turn the lights out,

But the light's 2 bright,

Can't begin 2 describe the horrors,

I relived last night,

A frightened 10 year old boy,

Much 2 young 2 fight,

Closed closet doors,

Bad touches echo loud,

Feel like I am screaming in a quiet crowd,

But nobody hears me, 

Nobody notices me...

I just wanna be free,

I just wanna be whole,

I just wanna smile from the deepest parts,

Of my soul,

Don't wanna feel all alone,

Don't wanna feel by myself,

I want someone 2 care,

I just wanna see the night,

When I'm no longer scared,

2 close my eyes...

So I listen 2 Beth sing....

"Johnny ain't that bad, he just plays rough,

I ain't that scared when I'm covered up"

"I leave the light on... I leave the light on.."

"I ain't that bad I'm just fucked up,

I ain't that sad, I'm just.. Sad enough....

I wanna love, I wanna live.. I don't know much about it.. I never did"

(Beth Hart - Leave the Light On)